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Post by Rainii Loire on Jun 24, 2007 21:19:20 GMT -5
(OOC--I am aware I am still in Esthar, but...this needs to be posted,instead of sitting on my computer. Let's say Rainii came here BEFORE going to esthar,ok? It is untitled because no title I could think of did it justice.)
:: This was not that way things were supposed to turn out.
They were supposed to grow old, He would’ve died in his sleep, or something. There would’ve been more time, and she wouldn’t have to be here.
But…here she was, standing outside the Village of the Mist, with Heaven’s Cloud strapped to her back, preparing to search out the place where his mother’s grave lie.
She takes the first steps slowly, and hesitantly. She pauses for a minute, before taking the next. Rainii is concentrating on her surroundings, trying to block out all the thoughts about the two boys who have caused her far too much grief lately, and the real reason she was here--.::
You know, in the way everything was supposed to turn out, you, Infinity, and Crohan would be joking about defeating Loci. You'd be laughing. You would be happy.
::--The ’concentrating’ thing really wasn’t working, but she kept at it anyway. The nagging voice inside her head kept repeating all the things she was trying not to think about. Rainii continues to walk, quietly. There are no other sounds besides her footsteps on the grass, and the jingle of the rings and her father’s dog tags bouncing with each step she took.::
This shouldn’t have been you. Either of you. It should have been me.
::She‘d had thoughts like that since Crohan died, and with Infinity‘s death, they were multiplied. Rainii could imagine them getting mad at her for such things, and it made her smile. Then it made her chest ache, because she remembered, again, that it wasn’t the three of them anymore.
It was just her.
She had now made her was to a small clearing of trees--and her stomach tightened. Going inside somehow made his death official-- while staying out here made it just seem like a really bad dream, or that he was playing a joke on her. Unfortunately, she didn’t really have a choice.
She takes a deep breath. She can’t leave now, she’s come too far.
Rainii moves aside the branches, and enters the clearing. ::
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Post by Rainii Loire on Jun 24, 2007 21:42:04 GMT -5
::The clearing Rainii walks into is brightly lit, the sun seeming to ignore the fact that this is a place for the dead, and that Rainii isn‘t particularly happy to see it all bright and sunny. The air is still, and quiet, and the area is bare--save for what she sees in the middle.
A lone grave, raised out of the ground a few inches. Behind it stood a statue of a woman, arms outstretched, a serene look on her face.
She walks up to the grave and reads the name.::
“Rydia Paige…..So, you’re his mom.”
::Rainii takes Heaven’s Cloud off of her back, and holds it in her hands.::
“He, uh….didn’t tell me what I was supposed to do with this.”
::She decides to place it on Rydia’s grave, gently. Instead of leaving, she continues to stand there.::
“I….hate this. I hate having to be the one left doing it.”
::The statue seems to be listening.::
“This just--it isn’t fair, I-- They aren’t suppose to be--”
:: The tone in her voice is confused, and saddened, and angry.::
“It was supposed to be ME! Of the three of us I just figured…you know, I’d go first, or whatever. They were too valuable, too good, to die before me. The world needed them more.”
::Pause.::
“And then….Crohan died.
I couldn’t even breathe, or see or-- anything, I couldn’t do anything to help save him, I just got to watch that castle disappear, and I knew…. I didn’t think I’d ever feel right again…but I had Infinity, I had your son.”
::She smiles.::
“There was still a part of me that felt off, but he was able to cheer me up. He made me believe that we’d be fine, the two of us. That we could do it. I just got used to being two-- Things were great.
And then…at the Jidoor Operahouse, he and Loci--”
::Her voice cracks. She’s trying her best not to cry, although she knows she needs to.::
“…I didn’t get to say much, he just….said he loved me, and to take care of myself, and that he and Crohan would always be there and then he….fell back into the Lifestream.”
::Rainii wipes away the tears that had escaped and smiles.::
“You’d be proud--he saved the planet. Without what he did, we’d all be dead right now. I’m grateful.
But I wanted to say goodbye.”
::She looks up at the statue, then up at the sky. Maybe she could now, maybe he‘d hear her. Maybe they both could.::
“Hey, I…have no idea where you are right now, Infin. Or if you can hear me or anything. I didn’t get to say goodbye, and while it may not matter to you, as you are among the dead, I need to, because I am stuck among the living.
I’m glad that I knew you-- I’m glad that your team got broken up on a mission, and you helped save me. I’m glad that you became the older brother that Squall never has been. I don’t regret any of the years that we knew each other. Although, I keep thinking about that last few days, and I’ve come to realize that…”
::She looks a little angry, but more in a playful kind of way::
“You KNEW! You KNEW you were going to DIE!
And, what, you ‘forgot’ to tell me?! I’m not a big fan of surprises, I would have liked to have been told….”
::Rainii sighs, and closes her eyes, the tears falling easier now..::
“ I don’t know how I’m going to do this without the two of you. I’ll try….Infinity, you said you and Crohan would both be with me, and I’m holding you to that.
This isn’t the way our lives were to go.
I don’t want to be here by myself.
I guess this is the time when ‘You go, I go too.’ stops applying.”
::She pauses.::
“I love you, guys. And I miss you like crazy.”
::Right now, she doesn’t want to go home, she doesn’t want to see anyone else-- so she lays down, in the grass. The warm sunlight shines across her face, and she starts to feels sleepy. Rainii decides that napping here would be fine, so she makes no effort to move.
Curiously enough, as Rainii falls asleep, she notices that there are people sitting on either side of her. One of these ‘people’ blocks the sunlight on her face, and she makes a noise in protest.::
Sorry, Rainii.
“’S okay, guys…”
But we’re here, and that’s all you need to know.
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Post by Mog on Jun 24, 2007 21:50:18 GMT -5
:Rainii is awakened by a soft patting on her head. She looks up to see the white cuddly moogle known as Mog. He hops back as she opens her eyes:
"Kupo...."
:He wipes his fuzzy little face off:
"Both of them are gone?"
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Post by Rainii Loire on Jun 24, 2007 21:51:12 GMT -5
::Rainii looks confused, and sleepy::
"Both of who...?"
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Post by Mog on Jun 24, 2007 21:55:28 GMT -5
"Kupo.....I heard about Crohan already.....but is it really true that Mr. Paige is gone?"
:Another tear runs down his face:
"He saved me many times in the past.."
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Post by Rainii Loire on Jun 24, 2007 21:57:38 GMT -5
::Rainii stays silent for a moment.::
"Um...yeah. Yeah, he's uh...gone too."
::She refuses to look directly at Mog, and ends up looking at the grass.::
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Post by Mog on Jun 24, 2007 22:03:01 GMT -5
:Mog hands his head:
"I'm sorry for your great loss...kupo.."
:Mog plops down in front of the grave and gazes up at the statue:
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Post by Rainii Loire on Jun 24, 2007 22:09:11 GMT -5
::Rainii feels that her life has gotten rather odd. Which supports the idea that she's dreaming, and will wake up soon. She falls back onto her back, hard, bumping her head,trying to wake herself. When she opens her eyes, she's still at Rydia's grave, and Mog is standing over her.::
"Maybe I should try that again."
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Post by Mog on Jun 24, 2007 22:11:25 GMT -5
:Mog hops up quickly and waddles over to her:
"KUPO! NO!!"
:He plops his fuzzy butt down in front of her:
"I'm obviously not the best in battle, nor have I been very good at much else. Kupo! However I can offer you some advice!"
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Post by Rainii Loire on Jun 24, 2007 22:12:54 GMT -5
::She stares at him.::
"Advice?"
::Well, like Kiros says, 'Stranger things have happened.'::
"Like...?"
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Post by Mog on Jun 24, 2007 22:18:24 GMT -5
"Kupo!"
:Mog hops up:
"Infinity touched my life....I never met Crohan...KUPO! They were friends though and I know they were both great!! You have been priveleged enough to know them both!"
:Mog chuckles:
"How do you think they would want you to feel right now? Sorrow or happiness? Kupo! I choose happiness because he was able to touch my life and I was lucky enough to have known him! Remember this, Kupo!"
:On that note the little skittish moogle scurries off into the brush:
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Post by Rainii Loire on Jun 24, 2007 22:22:50 GMT -5
::Rainii stares off after him::
"That...was interesting."
::She stands up, and brushes the grass off her pants.::
"Maybe he has a point..."
::She gives one last glance back at the grave before leaving the clearing.::
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Post by Natalia on Jun 28, 2007 3:14:27 GMT -5
(OOC: I ought'ta kick you. This is the second time I've read this, and it still makes me cry)
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